TIME FLIES

I actually hate throwbacking on stuffs because I usually do stupid things and I hate to see myself in stupidness. But I love the moment *10 years ago whe I'm still cute like this:

But now, as I'm getting older and bigger, body weight increases, little pressure that cause pimples, exposure to track and field activity*i hate this most and hey i'm a very-not-athletic-fat-short-girl* than hold responsibility of making my skin rentung, petanque, and somehow uglier



eh akumasihcomeldangorgeous.  haha. That perasan part is censored.

But of late. I learn something from it, *drumroll SELF LOVE! Realizing all people around me are all pretty and cute and have admires, it doesn't mean that I'm totally ugly, right? But insecureness still can't be mended well. When i'm scrolling my istagram timeline and watch all those famous-fabulous-pretty pics which is waaaaay better than mine, at that moment, self-esteem doomed. It makes me question myself and god "Why am I born ugly?" Syaitan kiri kanan depan belakang everywhere peh. A few moment later I realised that everybody are gifted with something. Just many people and me doesn't find that 'something' that only speacillize only into you.Yes, you need to be grateful, believe that you were just lucky to have all pleasure that Allah gives. BUT WARNING! DO NOT BE TOO OVERWHELMED BY YOURSELF. When this scenario happen, you will see you are at the top place and the greatest of all. Making you ego and disregard what is important to you. Ex; improving critics. After the feeling of being the king of all, life has a cycle, remember? Downdowndowndowndowndoooowndoooooown. check/ that will happen. It is totally hard to rise and stand on your own as you see no one willing to strecht out their hands to help. 

Conclusion, live moderate way. Do not put yourself in a high-comfort zone and strive to be better. Also, do not put yourself in a doom that is telling your mind to attach on stupid thing because you see life as nothing. Life is too short to do stupid things. Hey, it is absolute worth to sacrifice unproductive business *duniawi and lets think about our future and hereafter.



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wait, since when am i being an unpaid motivator? haha.

this is me, a student that is striving to be better *part 3